My Apology

Yesterday's Weight: 241.5#

Today's Weight: 240#

What I did right today: Worked on some stuff I enjoyed for the hell of it.

What I did wrong: I'm having a latte and a chocolate bar (albeit healthy chocolate) for my midnight meal.

This is an apology I posted to myself on "Joe Apology." It's a great blog where you can leave an anonymous apology for just about anything.

To My Body
I'm sorry to my body.

Sorry for neglecting to care for you properly. For stuffing you too full of food because I felt out of control of my life. For neglecting to exercise you properly. I'm sorry its so hard for me to get my eating under control. I'm sorry for the times in the past that I made myself throw up because of my bingeing. I'm sorry that I'm 100 pounds overweight and I know it sounds like an excuse, but it's so hard to stop eating when I feel so sad about everything. I keep trying and failing. I really am sorry.

I really mean it. And I'm really trying. But sometimes it's hard.

I need to start exercising regularly again. I actually like exercising. This schedule is just a real bastard and I'm not as resilient as I used to be physically.

But no excuses. I intend to do it right if it freakin' kills me!